“Jessy this is the third time are you sure?”

“Yes, mama I’m sure, well I think I am…actually I would try my best I don’t know but I don’t want to jinx it”

The above conversation is from less than a month ago between myself and my mama (mummy to my practice babies – you’d find out who later). You can almost guess what we were discussing about yes it was about this platform.

For years I had tried to launch a platform for women on relationships but somehow it never saw the light of day. I made every excuse under the sun, I can’t edit, I can’t create a website, I am too busy, who would read or watch what I write or say bla bla bla… The real issue was I struggled to agree with the truth I so desperately wanted to believe in. I knew the truth yet I found it hard to live it how much more speak it. And in many ways I wasn’t living the truth so I lapsed. It was easier to not say it if I couldn’t do it.

My mind-set fought the truth. It was WAR; a huge shift from the status quo and culture I grew up in and was used to.

2 Cor 10: 3-6 MSG says “the world is unprincipled. It’s dog-eat-dog out there! The world doesn’t fight fair. But we don’t live or fight our battles that way – never have and never will. The tools of our trade aren’t for marketing or manipulation, but they are for demolishing that entire massively corrupt culture. We use our powerful God-tools for smashing warped philosophies, tearing down barriers erected against the truth of God, fitting every loose thought and emotion and impulse into the structure of life shaped by Christ. Our tools are ready at hand for clearing the ground of every obstruction and building lives of obedience into maturity

Listen your fight for life is fought in the mind. If you can win in your mind eventually you would win physically. Also know that this WAR is a journey, there is no destination to arrive at until we get to heaven. Every day we must be prepared to WAR. Everything and lots of people would tell you this is wrong, they would call it all sorts of names: feminism, womanist and all the “isms” but I say hold on. Remember 1 Cor 10 our tools are not for marketing they are to demolish corrupt culture, they are to smash warped philosophies and fit every loose thoughts and emotions into the structure shaped by Christ.

Why I wait launched means I won this war. I am nowhere near where I want to be yet but I am far from where I started from.

For example: the dictionary defines waiting as:

  1. The action of staying where one is or delaying action until a particular time or event
  2. Wait – Be left until a later time before being dealt with.
  3. Wait – Defer until a person’s arrival

(read part two here)

I love you and I am rooting for you

Love and Light


Being single is not a waiting game… Choose to live your best life everyday…

Jessimiela Usidame

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